Secrets in the family

I just found out that my "close" cousin is married!!! What the heck?!?!? I can't believe she didn't tell me. And to think that she feels like she is entitled to know stuff about my life. I prayed about the situation and God informed me on how to deal with the situation but I must remember what to do. My flesh wants to lash out and keep a grudge, but her decision to keep it a secret is NOT about me. It is her life and her decision. All I can do is be supportive. But my attitude is that we're not as close as I thought we were, therefore hanging out with her is out of the question. Is that wrong? It could be. I wonder do they think that I keep secrets from them and my personal life is a mystery? It don't matter what they think. I hear bitterness in my words...I must pray about this. I just wanted to get that off of my chest (no pun intended!)

In a couple of days, I am going home for Thanksgiving. I am excited to get off campus and see something other than the ORU bubble! Interacting with my family is alright.....don't get me wrong, I do miss them. But I just saw them a month ago, so I'm not really missing them. I'm just ready to leave! Go anywhere!

I've learned alot these past few weeks of not talking on the phone. First, I see the dangers of gossip. When people tell you stuff, you gotta pretend like you don't know. Just like with you-know-who, I must pretend like I don't know what is going on. And when you hear two different sides of the same story (sometimes three), you must refrain from telling the other party what you know. It's too much knowledge and temptation to not spread what you know. And it's even harder to not react or treat people differently because of what you know. Ughhhhh......nobody tell me nothing! If you know something, don't tempt me by flaunting it in my face or casually mentioning it. It's almost like I have got to stop talking to people to stay out of their business. How will I be a successful therapist if I can't keep information confidential? I must take a stand! I WILL NOT ALLOW PEOPLE TO DEPOSIT DIRT IN MY LIFE!!!! What gives them the right to do that? And why do I feel as though I don't have a say in what is told to me? It's a passive theme in my life that I have got to deal with and this is just the issue to start off with. Can you tell I am upset? Well, I am and I'm not going to take it anymore!