Tonight was the Christmas gift give-away at church. Tara and I went shopping at Toys 'R Us and found some really nice stuff. I was really impressed by the calibur of gifts we purchased this year. The past two days have been so tiring but we persevered! On the actual day, we put the gifts in these cute little Santa bags Delilah made and totted them to the school. We went into each class as "Santa's helpers" and allowed them to pick a gift out the bag without looking. The kids were grabbing the gifts and looking at them like they were enema packs! They were disgusted. Clarycia even tried to put her's back into the bag and give it away. No one said thank you or anything! I had to make them say it. Then in the older teen class, the teens frowned at the camera and lava lamps we gave them. WHY?!?!? It was crazy! Then the teens acted a fool! They had food all over the class and actually had Tanisha yelling bloody murder! It was off the hook...and not in a good way. I got a lava lamp and I was on cloud nine. Then some people didn't bring their kids and still wanted to "pick-up" gifts. ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!? You can't leave the kids at home and expect for them to just get a gift like it's an obligation instead of a privilege. Cheryl Barginear brought Jeremy to the church at 9:10pm to pick up a gift. They didn't even come to Bible Class! How did he expect to just receive a gift. Were we wrong? I mean, the church did fork over the money to buy these gifts so were we obligated to give them without any discretion? I don't know now....
I don't even know what's going on with Candace. She's got a new boyfriend and she stays out til 4am with this guy? Didn't she learn her lesson the first two times? I guess not. And I realized that she is so rude. She comes in the room late and talks on the phone. Now you all may or may not know, but that is one of the reasons me and my white roommate didn't get along. She would be on the phone late at night talking in a whisper. But a whisper can be just as loud as a room voice because it's still noise. Maybe I am spoiled since living by myself. But she's done that three times and have not apologized once. The last time I was pissed! I acted out instead of voicing my feelings and for that I am wrong! I apologize and will talk to Candace about that. I am still maturing but at least I am conscious about my actions now and are actions to change. I am so proud of me.
I noticed this week how much Phillip looks like Brad! It's so freaky. I am starting to crush on this "wanna-be". Am I supposed to be with Brad? I really like him. I really have a crush on him. I think that he will like me too because...how can he not? I mean, naturally and physically? I got that in a bag. Not to sound too cocky but he's a man and I am a woman. He's older and I am younger. Y'all know that dating younger women are in now. And I am so good-looking. Can he find someone else who looks like me? I don't really think so. I am just impatient right now. I want to date now! I want to be married now! I want to cuddle, spoon, kiss, hug, and hang out with someone now! Sex is not really a factor but intimacy is. Intimacy is the key for me. I want intimacy. Is that so wrong? Oh well...I must wait until God says that it is time.
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