Last day of school

It's Thursday and I am supposed to be finished with ALL of my finals. Unfortunately, I am not. I was not prepared for my Earth Science final even though I studied. Around 3:30am, I decided that I was not prepared and was going to propose to receive an incomplete and take the final and turn in all other work after Christmas break. By the time I got to the GC, my teacher was rushing out the building. WHERE ARE YOU GOING? He said that he would be back in his office on Monday. MONDAY?!?!? I'M GOING HOME IN THE MORNING! I COULDN'T STAY UNTIL MONDAY EVEN IF I WANTED TO! So I came back to my room and left him a looooooong message apologizing for my lackadaisical attitude and asking him to allow me to either take the final and turn in late work after Christmas break or just let me take the class again without receiving a failing grade and re-enrolling. I hope he goes for it! Cross your fingers! Now all I have to do is call my psych teacher and ask if I can get a passing grade...even though I didn't take a test and turn in my term paper. AM I A SLACKER OR WHAT!?!?

Now I am cleaning my room, deliriously tired. My head hurts and my eyes are blurry but I promised to go to this seminar tonight in order to win some prize. I'll let you all know what happens. I can't even concentrate. As I am typing this, "Charmed" is distracting me!

I talked to Doreah and she thinks that Pratt is not a good choice for me. She was tripping 'cause he has a 10-year old daughter (at least I think she's 10). And she said that he looked weird...that there was something about him. She got me to thinking...am I selling myself short? I don't know what I want....well, I know what I want but who that is, I don't know. I say that I am so happy for people who find that special someone. It's so beautiful.

Another thing, I have relapsed. I was looking at myself in the mirror and just got disgusted. How could I let myself get this fat? It's depressing. Therefore, I have decided....better yet since God honors the words that come out of our mouths...I said that I would not get married until I lost weight. I wouldn't want my husband to see me like this....especially naked. Ughhhhhh.....anyways, that's all for now.