Long time, no see....

It's been forever since I've written. Let's see what is new...I'm still not back in school. What happened, you ask? Well, I didn't have the money to pay for the summer sessions that I took and by the time I got the money, the dean of the school said that it was too long ago to pay for them. And I found that out a week after the last add/drop date. So, I have to wait until Summer 2007 to take these HPE classes over. I have only 20 more credit hours to go (6 classes). And since I am full-time at work, the job pays for 2 classes. If I were in school this semester, I could be finished by December. But I have found a plan to still be done by December. This is my plan....I will pay for the two HPE classes with my money and take them the 1st summer session. Each classes is only 1.o credits and $450.00, which totals to $900.00. I plan to save at least $200.00 from each paycheck to pay for these classes. Then I will sign up for the job to pay for two summer classes (Earth Science and Chemistry). Then in the fall, I would sign up for two more classes (History & Systems of Psychology and Personality Development). The last two classes (Statistics and Developmental Psychology), I would sign up for at Tulsa Community College. The only question is when. I would do this semester since they do have fast trak courses that start in March but I need to save for the HPE classes and I would have to change my schedule at work. But at least I got a plan, right?

Next is work. I am so burned out! It is so hard to go everyday. They don't allow us to talk to each other, they are always watching us and it's an all-day job. I have called off so many days this year. The longest time I've been away from the job is 7-days. I just don't like this job but I need them to pay for my tuition so I can graduate. I don't have any financial aid! Many people tell me to find another job but I can't because I need the money! The callers ain't so bad. They're the same as before (read previous entries). I just tell myself everyday to hang on until December. The dates are passing by very fast. And I hope that by the time I get back in school, I will be so busy that I would not notice work.

I got two dogs! There names are Lucky and Dash. They are 2yrs old. I was looking for something to keep me occupied and bring me from my depressive behavior. And they have definitely done that. Let me start from the beginning. I was looking everywhere for a small dog that I could keep in my apartment and would not get bigger. I was looking on craigslist.org and petfinder.com. I finally found this lady in Springfield, Missouri that was giving away 2 Yorkshire Terriers. She advertised that they were larger Yorkies and they were attached to each other. I told her that I would adopt both of them and would give one to my co-worker, Kristin. They were asking for an adoption fee and I knew that I didn't have no money so I was just acquiring about the price. The lady said that her husband said that they would give them to me for....FREE! I was trippin' and told her that I wanted them. Me and Tanya drove to Springfield to pick them up from Petsmart where they were getting groomed. When we got there and they brought them out to me, they came to me and were frantically sniffing me. They were so cute...and big! Yorkies are supposed to be small and these dogs were big. She said that they were overweight and on a diet. She bought them their dog food and toys. I was so happy. I bought them an eating and drinking dish, a blacklight (to see pee spots), and cleaning stuff to clean the pee. We drove back and I noticed that Lucky was a nervous dog. He was trembling. When we got them home, they wouldn't walk up the stairs. We had to carry them and they were heavy. Weeks later, they are doing great. I was scared because I had never had a pet before so I didn't know what to do. They were peeing everywhere and I was constantly cleaning. Now we have schedule that I try to keep. If I don't, Lucky will remind me by pooping in the house. I wake up every morning around 8am to take them out. I also try to take them out again around 12noon through 3pm (before I go to work). I put them in my room and shut the door. At lunch, I come home and walk them again and put them back in the room until I get home at 12:30am. I sometimes take them out then and we hang out until I go to bed. They sometimes sleep with me. I have gotten into the habit of shutting my room door so they don't run around the house and poop everywhere. They are, for the most part, housetrained. Another great thing about them is that they sleep when I sleep. They sleep all of the time. But when I get up, they are up and following me around. I can't hardly leave the house without them following me. I trained them to go up and down the stairs. When I walk them, I leave Lucky off his leash so he can have some freedom in going to the bathroom. Usually Dash drags Lucky around on their two-head leash. Lucky is good with the callback. All I have to do is call his name and he comes right back. Dash, on the other hand, has earned his name the honest way. He will dash off and he is fast! I take them to this baseball field and let them go but lately, Dash will leave the field and go into the apartment complex where there is cars. And no matter how much I call him, he will not come back until he is ready. Lucky will run off too only if he is with Dash. I have to take them to this field because that is the ONLY place Lucky will poop at. I can walk around the apartment complex for 45 minutes and he will only pee. But then, he'll poop in the house! So, I gotta take them there and I feel bad for not taking Dash off his leash but I gotta do what I gotta do! Lucky has now gained this habit of barking whenever he hears someone by the door. It could be the neighbors coming in, someone going to their car, or even me coming in the door, he begins to bark like there ain't no tomorrow. I don't know about that. And they get so jealous if I play with one and not the other. They jump over each other to get my attention. And the other day, I caught Lucky eating my chocolate (PMS issues). He is so sneaky. He was sleep on the couch and I went into my room. Usually they follow me but only Dash came into the room. I hear Lucky's collar jiggling but he's not coming into the room. I go out there and he found my chocolate and was eating it. I startled him so he peed on himself. He has a nervous condition. He will pee on himself when he is scared so I am careful about yelling and startling him. They are my heart...even though they keep me busy 24/7! I noticed that I talk about them all of the time. It is so funny! I am a proud parent! But I also realized that being a single parent much be overwhelming. I was having panic attacks when I first got them because this was a big responsibility. I was seriously considering sending them back. I couldn't fathom having them for life. But now it's fine. I love hanging with them.

[Lucky is sitting up and Dash is lying down]

I have a new crush! Who? His name is Charley and he's so sweet. We used to work together. I remember his first day and he spoke to everyone but me. I figured he was gay and left him alone. He doesn't act gay nor looks gay! He's a sweetie pie! Anyways, we were seated next to each other and we just started talking. After talking to him, I realized that he was a caring and sensitive man. I felt protective of him and I wouldn't let anyone talk about him around me. I fought the urges to say stuff about him as a role that I portray. When he found out that I wanted to go home for Thanksgiving, he helped me SO much to find people to cover my shifts. He even prayed with me in front of my supervisor that I would have favor with him. He left a note on my car saying that he loved me (as a friend!). He also wanted to pay for my gas to get to Chicago. I loved the fact that he wanted to take care of me! Most guys I know wouldn't have even thought of that. Anyways, I developed a crush on him. Do you think there's a future there? I don't know. I ain't rushing nothing, even though my hormones are pushing me to run. Marriage is forever and one mistake or lapse of judgment would deter my life...especially if kids are in the equation. The biggie is that I was on this one call and this lady gave me a word of knowledge. She read my card completely! I was trying to hide that I was touched and crying. She then said that God was going to send me a friend that would make me happy. She also said that she didn't know if it was a spouse or anything. That call was at 10pm. That same night, Charley called me at 10:01pm! Coincidence? I think not. We have a date on Friday so I'll let you all know how that goes.

Also, I found out that the weekend I planned to go home (but didn't because of the weather and $$$), Maurice came to church. When I found out, I began to panic and get mad for not going home but I stopped myself. I just realized that I was not planned to go home. I pray that he gets his life together. Maturity, huh??? I'm proud of myself! Also, I just saw ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW this weekend and I loved it! I've seen it at least 5 times! It shocks you in the beginning because it's about homosexuality and bisexuality...free love. But the music is good! I like the movie because of the music! It's like a Grease or Rent for me. I promise to keep this up. Until next time, TTYL.