R.I.P. Earlene

Its a sad day here. Earlene passed away on Monday night. I was driving that night and said to myself that I was going to call Earl and ask how she was doing. Ten minutes later, he calls me and tells me that she had JUST passed away. I know I should've gone to visit her a few weeks back but I kept postponing it. I wanted her to know that I was praying for her and loved her. But its too late now. Earl seems to be doing well. Antonio didn't even know and I was wondering if I should tell him. But his mom saw my status on FB and she told him to call Earl. So I guess in a way I did tell him, eh? I need to be there for Earl and BJ. I don't even know what to say to BJ. I think I'm going to take him away for a weekend of fun. I just think on my conversation a few weeks ago with Earl. He told me that Earlene wanted to live long enough to be Bryson's favorite aunt. I'm glad that she's not in pain anymore but its crazy to think that she's not here anymore. I've been so preoccupied with everything that I JUST found out that my phone is restricted. Why? I ain't paid the bill. Ugh...I need an assistant. I've been using Earl's phone to call and schedule stuff for the funeral which is this Saturday morning at 10am. I think about the last time I saw Earlene. I didn't get a chance to sit and talk to her but she looked so tired and sick. Man....but at least everyone had the time to say goodbye. Actually everyone I talked to said that they kept meaning to go see her but kept putting it off. She wasn't even sick long...about 2-3 months. I'll miss her dearly!!!

Flaky Carmen is at it again. I'm getting bored with Kevin from Philadelphia. He's nice, funny, cool and smart and strong-willed but he's not holding my attention anymore. And now I'm feeling crazy guilty for what I did with him. That is so not like me. My therapy session was insightful. And Robbie bores me as well. I haven't answered his calls or anything since Sunday. I don't feel like talking to him. He's so boring to me. He don't talk about nothing in my opinion. Why are there so many dim-witted niggas in the world? But I wouldn't get rid of them for all the money in the world.

I went to see Twilight...all 3 movies on Tuesday night. I needed some sort of mental break. Between Earlene's death and my paper that was due that day, I needed another vacation. I really enjoyed my break to Philadelphia last week. I got to sleep, relax, watch television. I didn't think too much on anything. Except the blackout, I wouldn't mind doing that once a month. I think I'm going to do it again. But maybe another city. Who knows! I do love that city. Maybe I'll hit up Keyda next time I'm there. I never see her all the times I've been there. Maybe Vegas and I'll take BJ with me. Then we can get re-married lol. I would take Earl but he's got a family and Earl hates to travel. He's like my dad....only cooler lol. Anyways, I'm about to pay my phone bill and buy my books for my new class.

Oh yeah...Kesha and I talked about her reading this blog. At first I was put off by her reading this considering the subjects that I cover. But after thinking about it, I realized that I'm cool with her reading this. This is me! No, I'm not perfect and I am probably the opposite of people's perception of me. I love being the rebellious one! I love going against the grain of society. I flirt with the thin line of being antisocial. I was thinking of getting a tattoo of a red A on my chest. Wouldn't that be cool? Or maybe I could get a shirt with a large red A on it. So to conclude...it's okay to read my blog. My life is winding down so it might not be that exciting as it used to be. But who knows? XOXO