Passing the time

I'm at school waiting for my final to start so I guess I'll blog. What do I wanna talk about today? These past few days have been trying but I've made it through. Its amazing how people call themselves your friend but they aren't there when you need them. But its cool. I'm not going to change who I am because of who they are. Let's talk about some good news. I found a place!! A condo in Bronzeville that is very affordable. Actually my mom hooked me up to the place. I loved it when I went to go see it. At first I was excited until I realized I spent up all of my savings on stupid stuff like traveling and paying off Mayor Daley's ridiculous ticket prices. Then the guy hooked me up to this agency that gives out grants to first-time homeowners. Yippee! I am so excited. But I do need to earn some extra money so I can fix up my parent's place before I move out...its only fair. I'm happy that I'll be near Kesha and Delilah.

I surely forgot to call Renee on her birthday. Then I was supposed to go to the party but I didn' t get a chance to go. I'll just hit her up at Tammy's party. I hope this party ain't lame. And I don't wanna go if I don't know anyone else that'll be there. You know things are so weird now with everyone. Or maybe I've changed...idk. Anyways, I gotta remember to call Debbie for her birthday. I'm going to try to get down there and see her one day. Speaking of going there, I wonder if we're still going to Vegas for Labor Day? And I've got to start getting ready for Jamaica. Speaking of Jamaica....see how my brain works when I'm sleep deprived? lol

Something's missing in this relationship with Kevin. Have you ever been with a man and felt safe? Where you knew that he would take care of you? Where you felt safe in his arms? I'm missing that. I know that he would take care of me and he cares. But I don't feel safe in his arms. I wonder what that is. How do I find that? Is it trust that I'm missing? Or is it that I'm hooked on someone else? Idk...I'm going to figure it out. Well my classmates are gathering in so toodle-loo. XOXO