Bears tickets

About a month ago, I set out to purchase the ultimate perfect Christmas gift for the ultimate BEARS fan...two lower level seats to a BEARS game. I remembered that my cousin works for the headquarters for Soldier Field. So I called her and asked if she could get me some tickets...anything. She was not hopeful...in fact, she acted like she didn't wanna do it. So I nixed the idea. And I was glad I did because that ultimate fan is not in my life anymore. I mean...he did everything in his power to hurt me and he succeeded lol. Anyways, I forgot all about the tickets. So when I get the mail today, I see a letter from her in an official BEARS envelope. I then remembered my request. I open them up and there are two tickets for seats on the lower level to the 12/16 game. I called her and properly thanked her. She said that she had to call in some favors for those tickets [ o_0 ]. Later on, I got sad but it is what it is, right? Who wants to go to a BEARS game the day AFTER Christmas?!? I guess somebody does since they are on a winning streak to the play the Super Bowl. This game might be monumental...an important game of the season, right? IDK...Anyways....

Guess who called me today? I felt like calling Earl immediately afterwards but refrained. I already know what he was going to say. Yup, Alpacino. He was asking about a bonus check he received from the Board of Education. Then we started talking about the praise team and other churches and stuff like that. I am now CONVINCED that he likes me. He called me "baby" the other day and grabbed me. Ummmmm....I'm not feeling that at all. He's a cool guy but I'm not ready for a relationship right now. I wish I could turn off the sex appeal and just be ugly and frumpy and one-of-the-guys. LOL....Yeah right! And if that happens, then I'd be trippin' about that. I just wanna hang out and be me without having to impress or be careful of what I say or how I act or how I feel. Blah lol.

Speaking of blah....I think I need another trip to the doctor. Its been two months and nothing. This must be a cruel joke on me. Just when I'm done and trying to act right, I'm stuck with a baby?!? I can't be pregnant! I took a test and it said negative...but that happened before. So where's my period? I bet if I were having sex with Alfonse, it'd find its way to come (inside joke lol). Anyways, I don't want this! Every little pain, discomfort or twinge, I get happy thinking that its my period. But to no avail. In the words of Fahim....SCREEEEEAAAAAMMM! This sucks donkey balls on the real. Do you know all of the people I would be disappointing if I were pregnant? I'm too old for this...I know better. I need to get my mind and life right. Prayerfully, I'm not and the next post, I'd be able to give you better news. I shared my fear with Tara and she reminded me of when I got real sick after doing my senior paper. The doctor said that the way I deal with stress took its toll on my body months later. It has been a stressful year. Stress killed the last baby. Stress is making me tired....I think I might be anemic. While I do sleep alot now, I've always been like that so I can't go by that. Yeah I get nauseous alot now but I've gone through that before as well. Anyways, we'll soon find out. All I know is that I'm NOT having a (this) baby!!! Real talk! Smooches!