ROSES

Have you ever looked at your life and said to yourself "Things couldn't get any better?" Well I just had that epiphany. My life is/was not as bad as I made it out to be. 2010 was definitely a rough year but I learned soooo much. My eyes were opened and I have clarity now. Life is not bleak any longer. I have written my life goals for the next 10 years and everything is coming up roses. I graduate in a few months. I know what graduate program I'm going into. I've found the bomb condo a few blocks away from my friend who lives in the new city that I'm moving to. I'm saving soooo much money by not having that gas-guzzling car lol. I can't believe how much money that car ate up. I think we're gonna be happy with our new start. Yeah, I'll be near temptation but even with that, the temptation is quickly fading. I can hear you all now..."What?!? Are you serious? You're done?" Yep, I'm done. And to the skeptics (I know I'll be getting emails about this 'cause you all think I'm lying to myself), I did not make this decision based off of anyone. It just made sense...all the ducks lined up...arrows were pointing to that direction. And by me being in this city, it'll be easy for me to travel to see all of my friends on that side of the world. I'm looking forward to the future. I had much more to blog about but I'm so tired that my eyesight is blurry.

I babysat Milan today. She wore me out! But she wasn't any trouble. She watched her little shows like Elmo's World and Sid the Science Guy. I even had her watching Law & Order SVU (I know Kesha likes that lol). She had a new phrase today - SIT DOWN. She kept repeating it and turning around in circles. I think her Gee-Gee tells her that lol. Oh yeah I forgot this one...guess who's coming at me? Mike Ellis! Doesn't he know that he doesn't have a chance in HELL??!?? He started on Candace but when she shot him down, then he comes to me? Git outta here! Never gonna happen. He's done!

Speaking of being done, I find myself using the same mannerisms as the girls on The Bad Girls Club. I guess my tattoo channels them for me. I don't take nothing off of nobody no more. When you get on my nerves, I'm like "You're done." I especially got Erica's head movement down. I got Lea's eye roll and mouth twist and I got Blondie's "Done" attitude. lol So sad, right? One thing I'm cracking down on is the constant texting and IM'ing. I like texting just like the next individual but if I'm texting you more than I'm talking to you, then we've got a BIG problem. I had to let go off some people because they NEVER called me but ALWAYS texted me. There was one guy that had never even called me. We even argued through texts...how lame! And there was another guy who I met. I gave him my number and he STILL refused to call me. He kept hitting me up through yahoo when I am logged in through my phone. And there was another guy who would say hello then say nothing else for the rest of the day. It was almost like he didn't mean to even text me lol. Then he would call once every month or something. How pathetic, right? So I have cut all of those guys out of my life. No I don't need to talk to people all of the time. I prefer if I didn't. I like to sleep and watch TV in my spare time. But if we have a relationship (friendship, work, emotional, family or even intimate), then I should at least hear your voice if not to just say hey. But this attitude is mostly directed to people who wanted to be intimate with me...talking about how much they like me or want me or wanna be with me. Nicca please.....lol. Let me calm my bad girl persona down lol. But like I was saying, this year I have deleted all of the drama out of my life. And I guess they got the message 'cause I haven't heard from them this year. Now I'm deliriously tired....gotta go! Good night all! Sweet dreams and may God continue to bless, purge and minister to our hearts, minds and lives. XOXO