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I am so tired!!! My dad woke me up at 4am to let me know my uncle Roy passed away. I don't even think I have the energy to type about all of that. So much has gone down this weekend that I don't even know how to process all of this. I don't know where to start either. I wish I had somebody to bounce some stuff off of. These are the type of situations that turn me off from long distant relationships as well as being the other woman. He's not there for the important stuff. I know that I am looking forward to this little mini-vacay this week. They haven't set the date for the funeral yet. All I know is that I need a date to this funeral. I do not want to be there unattended. Last time we were together, I wanted to beat the breaks off of Alicia. And then dealing with Damon stresses me to headaches. I never told anyone what he did to me but I can't stomach being around him. He tries too hard to be nice to me and all I think about is when we were younger. Ugh.....anyways.

I didn't get to go to Game Night this month. I was pleasantly surprised with another appointment on Saturday afternoon. We had fun though. And then we all went to Outriggers that Sunday afternoon. I had never been there before but I loved it. It was fun. It was a fun weekend until someone spoiled it with talks of feelings and stuff. What am I supposed to do? Do I let go of what I want and go for what I can get? Because what I want may never come to pass and I don't want to pass up an opportunity. I'll figure it out eventually.

While I know that I complain alot, my life is really great! I just wanted to say that per Kamiel's request. I admire how she (you) always accentuate the positive and make light of the negative. Yeah there are lots of things that I want and sometimes those things drive me and depress me and anger me 'cause I can't change some things. Let me stop....Anyways, we're grieving over here on Surrey Lane. So keep us in your prayers! Holla