This is part II of the previous blog. Let me tell you all about my new job. I am excited. I will be based out of a hospital called Friends Hospital. This is a mental facility which will give me a multitude of experience for my Master's program. Now all I gotta do is find a good Master's program in Philadelphia. I got my place...going to buy my car next week....still packing. And then when I come back, I'll be moving into Tara's old house. This house is a two-bedroom with hardwood floors and finished basement. I'm excited!!!! This will give me the space I need to study and relax and have the ability to entertain. This is a fresh new start and I won't mess it up this time.
Now I re-read my previous blog and I don't know if I gave Alfonse the benefit of the doubt. He really came through with the romance. He was so cute lol. You could tell that he was out of his element. For example, when I went to get the food from the front desk, I left him in the room to set up and he was still looking at NBA stats lol. Now he was supposed to buy dinner but he got away with that one. He was in the shower and I had to pay. But I'm sure in his mind, it was just because I told him that I was gonna cover his parking and didn't. But for the record....it wasn't just. Yeah I know he ain't got much money but he got something. And we've talked about that already. And I feel like I owe him something. We didn't get to celebrate the anniversary (but I think that was deliberate on his part). We did do Valentine Day and that was so sweet...the card that I got via email. I was not expecting it and it really touched me that he did that. That really meant alot to me even though it wasn't much. Lately he says that I make him nervous. I definitely give that a side-eye. I do still stand by everything I said but I wanted to add that. So if he's reading this (and I truly doubt it 'cause he's deleted me again lol), thank you for everything. I truly appreciate the flowers and card and candles. The flowers were BEAUTIFUL and I'm pissed that I left them at the hotel. But in a way I'm glad too because I would've had my hands full with all of that. But what I didn't talk about is the aftermath of it all. As I've said in the past, he disappears after we are "together". It never fails! He bombards me in the beginning but afterwards, I'm like an afterthought. So, of course, this was nothing different. He told me that he felt guilty about what he was doing with me and was emotionally tired afterwards. So I made the selfless decision to leave him alone. He's getting married in a few months and I'm sure he wants to focus on that. And if I was his wife, I wouldn't appreciate another woman in the picture ESPECIALLY so close to my wedding date. And knowing him, he's getting nostalgic. So I made that decision to make it easier on him. But most importantly, I'm making it easier on me. I can't stand to think about his renewals....so. Is it hard? Yeah but I'm not emotional like I was the other times. Will it be hard living in the same city? I don't know...I don't know where he lives or works and vice versa. What's the likelihood of us running into each other? We both lived in Chicago as teenagers and never ran into each other. Its a huge city. Now I do wanna get him a birthday gift and probably mail it to his job. And I can hear the thoughts 'cause I just thought it as well. He didn't get me nothing for my birthday. I'm always giving and never getting...and you're right. Ugh.....*sigh* Idk
I missed the NFL Draft party on Thursday. I was invited to go by Maurice. They were performing and he wanted me to come. I didn't know that he was still performing with 3pc...I thought that he was doing the Street Clergy thing. But 3pc performed along with some other groups. I just wasn't feeling good enough to go out. But I bet if Bobby Brown was there, I would've showed up in a hospital gown lol. I'm watching "Jackie Brown" for the upteenth time and Samuel L. reminds me so much of Nate it ain't funny but I gotta laugh. And I love this scene where Samuel L. tried to strangle Pam Grier. She says slowly, "Now get yo' hands from around my neck nigga." Priceless! And Michael Keaton is sooooo sexy to me! I just thought that I'd put that out there. Tomorrow, I am getting up early to dedicate my whole day to doing homework that I missed this past week. I need to time manage better! Ok well I'm off to bed and....like clockwork, Jeremy is calling lol.
nigga was trying to holla at my sister then gonna come at me....was he serious? But here's the kicker...he took Candace out on a date. Of course she had to pay her own way lol. But with me...all I was worth was a trip to his basement. Are u effing kidding me? Hahahaha...I had to laugh to keep from getting mad. Creep a-hole.
Earl and Toya are through. I really thought that they were gonna get back together. I'm so sad about that. Then....well, never mind. I hope Genale and Bryson are okay through all of this. And he doesn't really talk about it so now I've got to go digging. I hope he's okay...he seems okay. I'm just disappointed in Toya. Who is she talking to??? Smh...okay Jeremy is calling back so good night. Smooches!
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