Love & The Single Gal

Its crazy that Chrissy makes alot of sense to me right now. I now see the error of my ways. I made all of this too easy. I didn't stand up for what I believed and wanted. I compromised my character...I changed for someone else. I wasn't true to myself. And as a result, I don't know how to forgive myself. Last year was the most horrible year of my entire life. I compromised myself because of hurt. I just think of the things I did and considered doing....its just sad that I felt that low and that hurt and that fragile. Why would I allow someone to make me feel that way? And I think that its time for me to stand up for myself because if I don't, then who will? This time last year, I was having a miscarriage. Do you think he cared? Do you think I crossed his mind? And just last week, I was in the hospital with the same problem. Do you think he cared? Do you think I crossed his mind? Its time-out, Carmen. Nothing is going to change! I think I need another Maurice reality check! Can you believe that he's never heard me sing? Anybody that knows me knows that I can sing and has heard me. Seeing Chrissy and Jimmy in that hotel room and hearing that song makes me want that for my life. And I'm gonna get it. But I'm not going to get that in this relationship. Its just that I never get what I want. Why not me? Huh? Anyways, I'm tired so goodnight!