Tuesday, May 18, 2011

Today was a good day. I went into work extra early today in order to get a jump on my work. But I think its just impossible to get all of that done in one whole day. It was nearly 6pm before I walked out of that place. But I did get through all 5 groups and met with all of my kids. I just have the paperwork to do. So this is my plan, I will do all of my paperwork on the weekend and just do the groups and counseling during the week. Now when I go home for these AWESOME!!!! concerts, I will have to work extra hard to finish this paperwork. I am loving this work...this is what I've wanted to do since forever.

I wrote the following paragraph last night before I went to bed. Here's the update from yesterday....

I still love my job. I had nothing but groups today which is great. I brought my paperwork home with me to do. I had to come home. I wasn't feeling too happy today. Yeah I was good for most of the day but something set me off. First of all, I talked to Alfonse. He was trying to get me to let him see me. I was falling for it too. It wasn't until he said something that sealed the deal for me. I made a joke/truth about him coming to find me if his wife got rid of him. He said that she said that he wouldn't never go anywhere and she wouldn't either. When I read that, it hurt. And that helped me realize that I am holding out on this small glimmer of hope that we'd be together. And since that'll never be, I've got to let go completely. Darn...I was so looking forward to having sex this weekend. But my heart is what's important. He said that he is completely done with me. That hurt too but oh well, right? Besides...he's into stuff that is dangerous and I don't want that in my life.

I am so excited about this Saturday!!! I am gonna cook on Friday night so I can chill ALL DAY for my Glee marathon. It starts at 9am until like 10pm. That is all day baby! And next weekend we are barbeque-ing for Memorial Day. This will be my first social event at my house...well, my house for the time being lol. I get to show off how good I can cook. We're doing ribs, chicken, hot dogs, kielbasa, bratwurst, steak, baked beans, potato salad, and some other stuff that other people bring. And I guess we can make it a game night as well. So amped about this....I need it. Something to make it feel better, ya know? Well, I gotta walk the dogs before it gets too late. Smooches!