Hey! I know it has been a minute since I've written on here. What can I tell you? Life is hectic. Anyways, I will give a more accurate update later, but right now I have got to tell you all this dream I had just last night.
I was at some kind of television show taping and there were a guy who really liked me. He always followed me around and was planning on proposing to me later that night. I was hesitant to accept his proposal because...I don't know. Right before the end of the show, this fine-looking man who was the prototype of Vin Diesel was fillin' me big time. I was pushing him away while getting pleasure from having this fine man chasing me. Did I mention that this nigga was FINE!!! He made me want to go "east-west" (use your imagination). Me, Kesha and Vin were sitting on a bench just chillin'. He told me that he was liking me for a while and he tried to tell me one day when we went out to dinner with friends. I told him that I did not remember that and Kesha said that she remembered when he tried to tell me that he liked me. I was confused because I would've definitely jumped on that if I knew. As we were sitting there talking, I saw the guy who was goint to propose to me and I felt guilty because in my heart I knew I was going to screw Vin. Just then, he put his hand in my bra! It took me by surprise. My heart jumped in my lungs and I secretly enjoyed it, but I stopped him because Kesha was sitting there. I didn't want to cheat on my fiancee with Kesha sitting right there, so I grabbed his hand to stop him. His hand gets stuck in my bra. I was frantically trying to get it out before Kesha turned to see us fooling around. She did turn around to see it but did not make a big deal about it. Vin states that he couldn't help it because I had big breasts (but that's not the word used in the dream). I was terribly embarrassed 'cause that always embarrasses me whenever someone brings that to my attention. Even when I see myself in pictures, I get upset to see how big they are. I don't even like people being in the vincinity of my chest. So, as I sit there embarrassed about Vin's comment, I want to stick my hand down his pants. But I refrain and look at his size 10 feet to indicate that he had something big too. That's when I woke up to go to work. Wasn't that dream crazy? What makes it so crazy is the fact that I distinctively feel the lust and desire that I was experiencing in the dream. And I remember the feeling of cheating on my man.
Now, what if that dream was foretelling some future event or desire within me? I believe the dream was telling me that I need to deal with the guy(s) in my lustful heart before I seek to get married 'cause I would hate to hurt his feelings with my feelings for other people. Well, that's all I wanted to say right now about that. I feel better about the dream now that I have told someone. Bye