3-weeks of torture

Hey people...or whoever. Did I tell you all about my table? I got my table. It is a 4-seater and is chocolate brown. The table is a high table with high chairs. I bought some place mats and they are brown and green. I also have a green candle in the middle of the table. I am going to look around for a cute candle holder to decorate. So I have decorated my bedroom, bathroom and dining room. I am working on the living room. I bought a television and antennae. I moved the regular table to the living room and put my computer and printer on it. Then the bookcase is in the living room, too. The kitchen is alright. I'm only gonna be here a couple of months so no need to do real big things. I do want to continue getting things for my new place in Chicago. I went to Home Depot and looked at paint. I used their computer to decide what color to paint my bedroom. It will be red and white...no surprise there, huh? The colors will be Chili Pepper and some Ruby color which looked like eggplant purple or maybe chocolate brown. I am excited about it. I am going to have jazzy-type music playing all of the time. It will be the "Chill Den".

Graduation is going to be at the end of July. Aren't you excited? I am not excited until I pass this Spring semester. I know I can do the summer classes, but I am worried about paying for these classes and getting through these stupid classes now. Once this semester is over, I will be excited. I am playing my yahoo music while I'm doing this and guess what's on.....DO ME by Bell, Biv, Devoe. OHMIGOSH......I remember this song and what I was doing everytime I heard this song. This song takes me back and I'm blushing....and giggling. Anyways, I got my period and it has lasted for 3 weeks so far. Is my body making up for not having it for 3 months? I almost thought that I was pregnant (immaculate conception, of course) 'cause my stomach was swelling. It's still swollen and large. I must see a doctor to get checked out...just in case. I don't wanna be another Auntie Nee-cee. I've missed two annual pap smears so that is unacceptable.

I met Takeyla's friend, LaDesch (or something like that). She is so pretty! Yet down-to-earth. She was telling me that she was doing Pilates and now I am going to do it! I am going to do that and I'm going to start the Yoga Booty Ballet program. I saw the infomercial on television this morning and I got excited about it. I am going to start. I always think about exercising and losing weight but I never do anything about it. The one time I did and I lost 30 pounds. So I want to be smaller for graduation so I can be sexy! So here I go. And by doing this, I hope to learn self-control not only physically but spiritually as well. I need to practice and pray on the fruits of the Spirit. I don't have those down packed.

Guess who I thought about this week? Jermaine Weathersby. I just get upset that he lied and deceived me. I am so angry at him. He was supposed to be my rock and he was a mirage! Anyways, I also thought about BJ. I miss talking to him, even though we didn't talk about much. I pray that he's doing good. I haven't heard from him since Hurricane Katrina. And Earl ain't got his number. What kind of family is that? He lives with Earlene! I ain't talked to Erick since that falling out. Ain't that despicable? I must be honest when I say that I was a tad bit jealous when LaDesch's phone rang and it was JD. He never calls me, but we ain't friends, so I can't expect anything else. I may be overreacting about this whole thing. But I don't like any grey areas...I like everything to be black-and-white. If we're friends, then we're friends. If we're not, then we're not, ya know? I just wanna know why he don't call me? And no.......I don't like him. I can hear your thoughts.

Well, I don't have nothing else to say so talk to you later.