Music

Its one of those nights so I'm listening to my music and felt like blogging about the type of music it takes to get me in the mood. Music is an aphrodisiac. It evokes emotions that are hidden or suppressed in an individual. It can make an individual sad, happy, excited, horny, grateful, soulful, thankful just to name a few emotions. Right now I'm listening to "Something In Your Eyes" by BBD and the song takes me back. I don't really remember the first time I heard this song but I know that it makes me want to grab somebody and sway back and forth, grinding and kissing. Just being outside feeling the warm breeze blow on my skin....feeling fingertips softly caress my body. Now "I Do Need You" by BBD is playing. Now I can imagine his breath on my neck then his tongue and then lips kiss my neck and ears. I remember when I went to the BBD concert last summer. It was so good. They sang both songs and I was out there dancing all by myself. One day I'll be able to dance to these songs with someone. These songs just make me smile and reminisce. The 90's were a magical time. The music was breaking barriers of sexuality but it was still considered music. Music nowadays is just crude like that one song that says I'm in love with your booty. Really? Is that music?

While some music makes you feel all soft and vulnerable and romantic, there is some music that make you feel like taking charge. Now I'm listening to "Cradle of Love" by Billy Idol. I remember this video vividly. I had to largest crush on Billy and wanted to just grab him and take advantage of him. I suppose this might be a great song to strip and dance to. I remember when Turquoise was searching for a song for Eric and settled for "Brickhouse." This song by Billy would be one of the top 10 songs for my husband...but that's only if he's into music. Some guys are intimidated by rock music.

Now my 80's R&B songs have started. These songs teach us how to love and be romantic. These are the songs that I grew up listening to. Now playing is "100 Ways" by James Ingram. He sounds just like my Uncle Larry singing. This is what singing is supposed to be!! But if men would listen to these songs instead of Lil' Wayne, they would be more successful in keeping their women happy. Just be generous....buy her some moonlight to wear and in your arms tonite she'll reflect that she owes you. That's all it takes. Now ladies let me give you some advice...don't give in hopes that he'll get the clue and do these things 'cause he won't. It's a hit or miss with romance. He will either get it or not. There is not in-between or faking it. You're only doing both yourself and him a disservice by allowing that to go on. You are left frustrated and unsatisfied and he thinks he's the greatest. Then if you tell him the truth, he's then wounded. Now talking about love and relationships is another blog in itself.

Now this one song is playing that I heard when I was in my teens with my dad. He said he hadn't heard this song in years and thought it was the funniest song in the world. It's called "She's got papers on me" by Richard Fields. Now my songs are on shuffle so this song randomly came on but you know I must talk about this aspect of music. There are some songs that give insight and make you think. This guy in the song is saying to his mistress that he can't leave 'cause his wife has papers on him even though he really wants to leave. As a mistress....I mean former mistress, this song is touching. This man showed his mistress that she was important to him. He said "I found about you (the mistress) too late." He did for the woman and even made a song about her. Then you hear the wife's response and its hilarious. She busts the nigga out...y'all gotta find the song and listen to it. She's like "You gotta pay me to be free." When a person is having an affair, there are certain songs that goes with those actions like "Secret Lovers" which I hate (thanks Alfonse!). Why? I hate secrets...if I'm in love with someone or happy about something, I want everyone to know and be happy or envious of it. Secrets indicate that someone is ashamed of the other person. I hate being ashamed of people and I wouldn't want no one feeling ashamed to be with me. It plays on a person's ego. It makes one think that they are not good enough for the other person. But that's just me...I can only talk from my own personal experience.

But moving on...these songs are starting become depressing like "Congratulations" by Vesta. Why in the hell would I want to go to my man's wedding and wish him congratulations? Marrying another woman and I hear it through the grapevine? That's crazy. He better glad I don't tear that place up! lol. Now "Count Me Out" by New Edition is playing to lighten the mood again. I guess I can talk about my day on Saturday while this is playing. I went to see Bobby, Ralph and Johnny too at the Country Club Hills Theatre. They were so good. Now you know I'm in love with Bobby Brown so I was excited by that. They started singing "On Our Own" by Bobby for the Ghostbusters soundtrack. Ralph did the rap and they actually said ghostbusters which I was trippin' about. Why they say ghostbusters? Who even remembers the ghostbusters? What was sad that I knew the whole rap and was right with them. Then they sang "Money Can't Buy You Love" by Ralph. The only reason I remembered that song is because Mo' Money came on cable just last week and I TiVo'ed it. Then Johnny sang one of his songs that I can't remember. Then they sang "Can You Stand The Rain". It was so beautiful. Bobby got winded and tired in the middle of the concert. The concert was great. Then Candace and I went to see Rocky Horror Picture Show at the Music Box on the northside. I had always heard that it was fun to go to those midnight shows so I was amped. Candace put a damper on the event 'cause she hadn't seen the movie and was acting all uppity. She was acting like she was scared that someone was going to come out and scare her and she was snubbing everyone. I had fun. It was definitely a culture shock and to hear the script that people say during the movie along with the props was fun. I'm going again...I just need a good partner. I've been asking Marquetta to go with me but she acts like she's an old woman with her kids and husband. I guess thank God for singleness, huh? lol. Nate wanted to go with me but I don't know if that would've been his scene. And I would've been driving him up there and you know my rule about driving niggas around...I DON'T DO IT! I was so tired when I got home that I overslept for church. Oops! Then Candace complained the entire night. OMG...never again! I'll hang out by myself before I do that again. Sunday was my grandmother's bday. She is 85yrs old. We had a surprise party for her at the church. Uncle Larry and Linda was supposed to come in town for it but after that drama with Marcel, they renigged.

The drama with Marcel....where to even start. Marcel is my Uncle Larry's illegitimate son. Marcel's mom brought him around when he was born and my grandfather told everyone that was his grandson. My Aunt Linda told my grandmother that it was my father's son instead. Needless to say, Larry didn't claim Marcel. So 3o-something years later, Marcel comes around looking for his dad. He is depressed that he never knew his dad. He meets the entire family and we embrace him. He looks exactly like Pete so we know he's family. So my dad keeps in touch with him and a few weeks tells him that if he wants to see his dad to look for him on facebook. I told my dad when he was doing it that was a bad idea that would blow up in his face. Marcel creates a facebook page and adds Larry as his friend. About three weeks later, Larry calls my father and tells him to stay the hell outta his life and hangs up. He then blocks the entire family's phone calls and deletes us from his facebook friends. Marcel's mother gets into with Linda. Linda says that Larry has no outside kids but she's forgetting Michael in Michigan. Michael don't even come around. I ain't seen him since I was a small kid and he wasn't nice when we met him. So Marcel gets mad that Linda disrespected his mother and is ready to scrap. That boy is crazy....just like his daddy. He's got that Bell anger problem lol. Linda and Larry tell Marcel and his mom that they would be in town for the party and they would meet with her privately some time during that weekend. Marcel said he didn't trust himself to come and didn't want to come if he dad wouldn't be there so he didn't come. His mother comes to find that Larry didn't even come into town. I have no respect for that man. How can you do that to someone? He knows that's his son. He wasn't raised that way but that goes to show you that breeding is only a percentage of a person's personality and actions. After the party, I went to a carnival with Earl. Freddie was there too but he was working so hard that I didn't get a chance to see him...boo! It was fun. I tasted my first funnel cake. And Earl decides to embarrass me by asking some random guy if my dress was too low. Dude is staring and saying "naw its fine". It was too low...the rainbow dress. We know that is too revealing but Earl put me on blast. Its cool 'cause payback is in order and is coming on swift wings lol.

Now back to the music. I'm going to end it with songs that put me in the mood...make me wanna think naughty things. "What's It Gonna Be?!?" by Busta Rhymes definitely takes me there. His voice is so sexy and the beat and lyrics make me wanna scream out 'yeah'. I think it might be Janet 'cause "I Get Lonely" is another song. This takes me back to when I was with Nate. I think we might've used this song once but I loved it way before him and besides...he wasn't an asset to the song. Yeah this is the song to play when putting on lotion. Next is "The Greatest Sex" by R Kelly. I don't even know what to say about this one. This is a baby-making song. He says it in the song that a love child will be born lol. "How Does It Feel" by D'Angelo....mmmmmm. Not even going by the video but this song is so sexy. Good song to get me in the mood. "Moments In Love" by Art of Noise is THE song. Everyone has done it to this song....except me. But V103 plays this song almost every night in the middle of the night. I remember hearing this song on WKKC at night. It was the sex song lol. Now this next song doesn't really fit but it put me in that nasty mood..."The Whisper Song" by the Ying Yang Twins. I remember listening to this in Tulsa right before I went to work. I know Jesus wasn't pleased with me but I love this song!! He says take your thumb out..." lol. "Cry For You" by Jodeci...actually anything by Jodeci will get me in the mood. That's what I was listening when I was with Steve. But when they break it down "baby I'm begging, baby I'm begging begging baby" does it for me. That's how I like it...cry and beg for it...I mean me. I'm trying to get my mind right...lol. Great foreplay song. Remember "Shhh" by Tevin Campbell? That was a nasty song that put me in the mood. Its so taboo because he was a child star and gay so you don't know who he's singing to. It just seems wrong but feels so right and good. Then the aspect of being quiet but in places where you could get caught is so naughty and bad...hmmm. Normally I wouldn't choose this song but its a classic "My My My" by Johnny Gill. It don't make me feel naughty but I thought I would mention it along with with "Rock wit 'Cha" by Bobby Brown only because of the video when he pulled that girl onstage and told her that she didn't need that sweater for what they were about to do and gave her a lap dance. OMG....he said baby let's do it right. But its not naughty...its borderline when he said touch me anywhere. HAHA...I can think of places I could touch him. Now this song is "There U Go" by Johnny Gill is good 'cause its sexy but once again not naughty. This is a good foreplay song or making out song. Now a nasty song to get me in the mood? "Nasty Girl" by Vanity 6...tonight living in a fantasy in my own little nasty world. Anything by Prince is good. I can see taking advantage of someone to this song. It kinda motivates you to be bad and put all inhibitions away and just do whatever. "Do Me Baby" is soft and sexy while "Get Off" is naughty and nasty....23 positions in a one-night stand. Its hard for me to say what's right when all I wanna do is wrong...takes away ones inhibitions as well....talking about dreams getting people wet by a box with a mirror and tongue inside. Can he get anymore graphic? "Anytime, Anyplace" is a great song to start off with. The slow melody and the soft voice and nature sounds....not to mention she's illustrating what is going on with his hands moving up her thigh as people are watching them. Naughty.

Now this last song is not a nasty song but a love song. "Love Need Want You" by Patti LaBelle. This song means alot to me. I felt this way about someone at one point and brings me to think, regret, ponder and reminence. I used to cry when I would hear this song but now I just appreciate the raw honesty of the words. Enjoy! XOXO

I love you, I love you

Honey I love you I do

More than you ever know

Its for sure

You can always count on my love for ever more

I need you, I need you

Baby I need you right now

Say can you understand you're my man

And my one desire is keeping you satisfied

Baby when we

When we're together

Say I'm alright and you're alright

It's like paradise

I just want you to know how I feel

I want you, I want you

Sugar I want you so bad

I got a burning desire my soul's on fire

Can't you see you're my everything

I love and need and want you baby