I was just watching "Elimidate" and it was a masked episode. The guy said that he wanted to choose the girl based on her personality. It was hilarious!!! These girls didn't know what to do. One girl with red hair kept saying that loved sex. The other girls called her trashy because she kissed the guy. One girl with blond hair admitted to being bi-sexual. The guy was eliminating the girls because he felt as if they were holding back and not talking.
Has society groomed women to hide themselves and project themselves as "sex objects"?
These girls could not hold an intelligent conversation. Now I must realize that the show is for entertainment purposes only but that is a representation of society. It actually happens everywhere. Many times I feel like I must portray myself in a certain way to gain the attention of certain guys. But my theory is that years from now when these guys realize that their criterion has left them with shallow and adulterous women, they will regret their discretion towards decent women. The thing that really bugs me is the incessant fighting and bickering. These girls don't know each other and they are actually fighting over a complete stranger. And some of the guys are not attractive. It's totally competitiveness and I hate competitiveness. It's neither fun nor fair! If I have one message for women everywhere (including me!): Be yourself and don't change your morals, values, views and beliefs for a man, even if he is worth it! There is some bitterness in my heart towards doggish men! I've dealt with them all my life and I haven't had not one worthy memory or happiness with any of them. I hate that I gave myself freely to jerks! That I changed myself for guys who didn't like me! I'm learning to say NO to guys...I'm not always succeeding in it but I'm trying. For example when I was at home, Earl asked me several times to go out with him, Toya and Candace and I told him no. I was surprised that it came out so easily. I hope he didn't think I was saying NO because of Toya. I like her. She seems cool even though I've never talked to her but she does seem shy. But I stood up for what I wanted instead of pleasing someone else.
Next subject...I've been practicing my singing. I've noticed that my range increases when I warm up my voice and practice. I use songs from musicals, plays, soundtracks and various other songs. Like right now, I am singing to "Out Tonight" from RENT Soundtrack. It helps me sing full-voice and drastically change keys from low to high. It's challenging but fun. I hate my job!!! Especially one of my supervisors. His name is Brian and looks like the main character from "The 40 Year Old Virgin". Brian is hairy, nerdy, awkward and anal. He's scared to talk to people and when we ignore him, he trys to get all brody with someone. Then he's a snitch! He'll tell on anyone about anything. Then when he talks, he starts with "um...." all of the time. Then he puts his hand to his chin when he talks. And when you're talking to him, he gives the impression that he is not listening because he keeps saying "yeah...yep...yeah...yep" until you stop talking. He doesn't have good people or communication skills. I just don't like him. I ignore him now because he is not going to work my nerves. I need to either get over him or look for a new job.
Here's my plan for vacation: I plan on going home but staying in Chicago while everyone else is in California. That way they can save their money on me 'cause I need it for tuition this session. And I can take care of church business while they're gone and earn the money that they are giving me. Then I can clean the entire house and organize it while they're gone. Then they don't have to worry about sending the birds to someone else's house. I hope they go for it! If that goes down, I keep Raneisha (maybe Deanna) with me that week and they can help me clean the house. It will be fun. I would clean the kitchen from top to bottom, organize the laundry room, clean my parent's room, the girl's room, maybe the twin's room (not Arthur & Kenny 'cause they're grown and I don't want to "find" anything in there), my room (to the best of my ability because of Candace). That would take forever, you know but if I got Raneisha, it might go faster. If I have time after that, I would do the garage and shed out back. I would get that stuff where you can polish the floor. I am excited because that house is ridiculous!!! Anyways, nothing much else to say at this point but good-bye. Must get ready for work - 4pm - 3:30am!
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