The funeral is this Saturday, July 3, 2010 at 10am. I've been appointed to help with the repass. If it weren't Earl and Earlene and BJ, I wouldn't be doing it. I hate funerals. Everyone is crying and sad and I feel so helpless and sad as well. Earl told me about her last day. Earlene was quiet and unresponsive. The family was all around her and waiting for their brother. When he arrived that night, he told Earlene that she could go now that he was there. Immediately after he said that, she let go and died. Isn't that sad? But I'm so glad she's not suffering anymore. This holiday is gonna be bittersweet. Can you believe that my new class starts THIS Wednesday? I don't even get a break! I thought I got a two-week break. So I had to rush buy my books from Amazon. I received the White Sox jacket that I ordered a few weeks ago. I don't know what to do with it...and the Bears jacket. I haven't heard from him to tell me if mailing the stuff to the school would be okay. But now thinking about it...why should I have to mail it? If a person wanted something, wouldn't they want to get it face-to-face? Or at least be grateful enough to....I'm being unfair. I have to be understanding. He is preoccupied with other things..trying to maintain his life....fighting for what he wants. And me and my stupid gifts are not a priority. They are not even a blip on his radar especially since he's deleted me from his life and memory. Moving on... I'm so tired...always tired. What is that about? Maybe its being on the phone all night. I didn't go to bed last night until 6am. I need to get my mind right lol. Going to bed 'cause I have nothing else to talk about. XOXO
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